I'm that one girl with the bad childhood.

I'm that one girl with the bad childhood. 

Pretty much my entire life I lived with my grandparents. Reason being, my mom was an alcoholic and couldn't take care of me, my dad fell off a roof working and couldn't even take care of himself. Living with my grandparents wasn't exactly a good life, but we managed. We lived in shitty apartments, "the projects" I guess some would call it. My grandparents were also alcoholics. I remember hearing them argue a lot. Countless nights where my grandmother would lock my grandfather outside and I would hear him beat on the door, with me just a few feet away. I would cry for my grandmother to let him in. There were some nights where I seen it turn physical. In my childhood I never seen my grandfather hit my grandmother, like my aunt, mother, and uncle, but I did see her beat on him. I remember getting in between them, screaming for her to stop, countless nights I cried for my mother, but she didn't want me. At least it's how my mind worked at around age 8. Well, long story short, I moved in with my mom when I was 9, moved back with my grandmother about a year ago(for reasons I'm sure I'll tell you eventually), she doesn't drink anymore and my grandfather is now passed away. The other night I went to ask her something and she was drinking with some man that she keeps talking to over the phone. She asked me if I wanted a drink. I never felt so let down by her. For some reason this affected me enormously. I cried and cried and cried. I needed Derick to be there for me. He wasn't. We fought all day because he didn't come see me. "Wanted a day to himself" when I haven't seen him all week. We continued to fight and he even turned his phone off when I needed him most. The next day I tried to talk to him and he replied with "last time I seen my grandmother she poured me a drink" and "that was a long time ago". I know I'm not always the most logical or sane person, but when your girlfriend is just completely upset you be there for her, especially emotionally, you agree with the non-sense and make her feel like she always has you. Jerk.